paininfliction

I know it has been a while..im not even sure if anyone cares anyway but i am so tired, i dont sleep i dont go out i love my friend meagan for coming over to keep me company but i cant keep her here just to settle my own lonliness its not fair to her she has her own life.I feel as if i am reaching so far just to recieve comfort from the people i love the most it is difficult when two of my best friends live so far away i miss them dearly it is hard to make it through days without them sometimes and the worst part of it all? i can not go see them for i have no job and therefore no gas money and while i will have a student loan shortly it will n

So after a year and a couple months im finally going home im so excited big news as well i got into college! im just waiting on the financial aide ppl to hurry up so i can pay the school i cant wait to see my friends i miss you all! I miss home i feel like i can be myself there and im going to get a part time job overall enjoy life take a lesson people be positive and happy.

Well here i am in sylvan lake not knowing what to do with my life... ill say this much im not enjoying myself enough to stay. Dont get me wrong living with my best friend is amazing but it seems there is nothing to do without money and my job? cleaning canadian tire just about every night its tiring i think i just miss my family and friends back home the routine of everything. I dont know anyone here it stinks and to be frank im not one to walk up an say hi to a random person just to make a friend. Im starting to think about going to college in lethbridge moving there but im not sure yet ive still got 3 more months here my family sa